Blog#2 - Subject Object

There are many things around us that we keep on questioning. Some of those questions are not really answerable by yes or no or cannot be answered immediately. Some answers can be found by slowly observing and finding out what your real self is. Everyone did not choose to be born nor to be born during their birth date. Everyone did not choose their parents. Everyone did not get to choose the name that they want because our parents was the one who chose it for us. We did not even choose the social status of our family that we grew up with. Everyone did not choose their sexuality.

I myself did not choose my full name because I was still a baby during the time that they are choosing a name for me.  When I was a kid, they called me Junine or Junina, it was fine for me since it is the nickname that they were used to call me. When I grew up, I preferred being called MJ rather than my former nicknames. In terms of clothing, as I grew up, there were changes in choosing my clothes. When I was a baby, they are the one who chose my clothes but when I reached graders, there were times when I argued with my parents in choosing my clothes but sometimes I still consider their opinion. But when I grew up, now, I am the one who is choosing my own clothes since my point is I am the one who will wear it that is why I need to be comfortable with my chosen clothes. It was not also my choice to have a religion or to be a Catholic because my parents are both Catholic that is why I am baptized as a member of a Catholic church but as I grew up, they are letting me explore about religion and I know there is a document that says that when you are at legal age or 18 years old, you can change your religion. I also did not choose having siblings but for me, as of now, they are my life. In choosing my accessories, when I was a baby, my parents and grandparents were the one who chose but when I am growing up, I resist having too many accessories. I also argue with them in choosing the accessories since I am only a watch person. I do not like many accessories. I did not also choose the social status that I used to grow with but of course as time passes by, after graduating or after having a degree, then there will be a time that I can choose whether I would like to get richer or just stable with this condition since I will be the one who will work for myself in order to get what I want. Gender preference is the one that makes a thing sensitive but since I want to be consistent with myself, I like having decisions by myself since I will be the one who will live my life. My parents and family are intervening with it but they said be yourself and you are who you are. Having my own point of view is my decision. It is one of the things that I am proud of my family since when I was a kid, they let me use and know my capabilities and they even ask for my opinions and ideas. They did not enclosed my mind with a single idea that they want to put in my mind. Nowadays, as I enter college, I spend more time in Manila since the location of my school is there. Of course during weekends, I am required to go home in my province since my family is there and they are waiting for me but whenever I am busy with my school works, they are allowing me to stay in Manila as long as I finish the works that I have to do. When I was a fourth year highschool student, I was excited in getting a form for an entrance exam for college. I got a form in UP, DLSU, ADMU, Mapua, and San Beda. Luckily, I passed DLSUCET, Mapua Entrance Exam, and San Beda entrance exam and was able to get the course that I wanted. Until the UPG was released, my UPG was good enough that enables me to enter UP but as time passes by and the school year is coming I am having a dilemma in choosing my school since in the 3 schools, I can get the course that I wanted but of course I still considered UP since UPLB is near in house and my family believes that UP is a good school that is why my sister was enrolled there. Taking up AB in Political Science and BS in Accountancy is my choice since I believe that both fields will help me enrich the knowledge in order to be a good lawyer. My chosen career is being a CPA Lawyer and they do not have a problem with it. They are just supporting whatever my decision is. They just told me that I should be consistent with my decision so I will not regret in the future.

For now, I have to prove myself to everyone that the things that I have chosen is right and that things that I have chosen will not be a hindrance towards my success. In my life, I am the only one who is in control and also God because I believe that hardwork pays off.